“Why are you going to Macau?”
For me, every trip to?Macau is a short escape—to a place that’s strange but yet familiar.
I am not a local, and neither did I go to school there, but fortunately I have a good friend whose Mom can’t leave Macau due to immigration reasons, and so I can stay with her whenever I visit Macau—a place I can settle down without any worry.
Every time I feel suffocated by work or life’s pressures, Macau would be the best place for me to rest and take a break; no matter how far it was. Because this place made me realise, that home is none other than myself.
“It’s so boring here, why don’t you go straight home, or go travelling?”
Maybe because the place is too small, it’s actually quite boring for tourists and locals. But I come visit a few times every year, and slowly, as an outsider, I enjoy a lot of familiar things: going back to familiar streets, eating my friend’s Mom’s cooking. You can also find old friends to hang out with, but you can also find fresh new things to do or check out in this fast-changing gambling city.
Seeing how comfortable the local residents are, and also the tourists who shuffle in and out ever so quickly, looking at the river that divides capitalism and socialism at Coloane, I gradually slow down, find my own rhythm, and find the feeling of peace.
Go home? Family makes me feel somewhat restrained. Travel? I’m too lazy. I don’t wish to go somewhere entirely foreign in such a short time. Everything here feels just right.
Is this travelling? In the traditional sense, not really, but this isn’t my home either. When these familiar and foreign feelings intersect, some definitions become a little murky.
As long as you’re present, and your heart is settled, anywhere is home, and anywhere can be your world.
Divago is a freelance planner in advertising from Canton. Born after ’95, she loves trying new things in different genres and categories. She is also a professional fashion photographer who runs an independent brand. She believes in creating interesting artwork, and so on some levels, you could call her an artist.